Be Awesome: Just Decide

What’s the first step in changing your life? It’s something so simple and simultaneously so complex, but I promise, you can do it.

Be Awesome: Just Decide

There are a million little things that we let stand between us and the life of our dreams. Money. Relationships. Timing. A lack of skill, talent, or knowledge. A bunch of excuses for why something will never work. When you distill it down and remove all the bullshit, you’re left with something simple. You don’t believe it will work because you don’t believe in yourself.

You know that moment when you realize the number one barrier between you and your goal or dream is your own damn self? That! That is everything. It took me along time to finally see it, but I don’t want you to have to wait another day.

Be Awesome: Just Decide

I’ve recently come to realize that the number one most crucial first step in starting any new big project is to just decide to do it. To intentionally make a decision to change your life. Not to just wish and hope, but decide and act.

You’re thinking, “well, d’uh!” but ask yourself, how many times have you let an opportunity pass you by because you just weren’t willing to believe in yourself and make the commitment? You might have given a different reason. I can’t afford it or it’s not a good time. But were those really just excuses? They were for me.

I’ve been writing this blog off and on for six years, and it wasn’t until last month that I finally decided. Now is the time to change my life. I’m worth it. I deserve to be happy, and I don’t have to apologize for feeling that way. And neither do you.

So, what do you want? What do you really want for your life? Not what do you think you should want. Not what do you think you can reasonably get. How do you want to design your life so that you feel outrageously happy? Allow yourself to sit with that question. See it in your mind. Feel it. Write it down or speak it out loud.

If all this is easy for you, if you’ve already got it all figured out, I take my hat off to you. For me, this process has been difficult, even scary. There were actual tears. I felt like I didn’t deserve to be happy. I told myself that living your dream life is for other people. Rich people. Lucky people… Good people. Not for me.

Truly accepting that I am a good person who deserves to be happy was a revelation. Something I’d denied for the past 20 years.

But I’ve decided. I’m changing my life. It’ still terrifying, but in the most exciting way. And I’m so far from having all the answers. I don’t yet know how I’m finally going to start making money off my blog. I’ll figure it out. Other people have done it, and I can, too. It will be hard work, but I’ve done the most important thing. I’ve decided to show up and do the work.

Be Awesome: Just Decide

So let’s take this journey together, friends. Let’s build the lives we truly want. Let’s start now and not waste another moment envying someone else’s life. You deserve it because you are awesome.

Hold That Thought | How to be Awesome on $20 a Day

Hold That Thought

Thoughts and feelings are swirling right now, friends, and I’ve made some decisions. The past few years, I’ve been really inconsistent and non-committal with this blog. I didn’t give it the energy that it really needed to be properly nourished.

In the past I’ve taken long, unplanned breaks because I just didn’t feel like I had anything to say. This is different.

I wanted to let you know that I’m taking a planned, totally intentional, and completely focused break this time. There won’t be any new posts here for a couple of weeks at least. In the meantime, we’ll be doing a bit of tidying up in this space. Cleansing. Renewal.

I’m still sorting through exactly what that will look like, both literally and figuratively. Some archived recipes might disappear from the feed to give us a fresh start. Or not because you can’t erase your past. Renewal is a process, and I’m still working through it.

What I do know is that I’m committed. I want to have my own business someday, and I feel like this blog could be the key that unlocks that door, or maybe even the door itself. We’re making things happen, friends. Come along for the ride.

In the meantime, I’d love to hear your feedback. What kind of content do you most enjoy? What else would you be open to reading about? Where do you like to hang out on social media? Leave a comment and let me know.

I hope those of you who read this blog will stick with me. If you visit and things look a bit wonky, extend a little patience and know that it will all pay off. I’m here for it all. It’s gonna be awesome.

Awesome in December

Awesome in December

Awesome in December

December is so jam packed with awesomeness it’s almost hard to take. My favorite thing about this December was that I got to spend my birthday with my daughter for the first time a long time. It made turning 39 much less harsh. The burgers and milkshakes from Five Guys didn’t hurt the day, either.

The weather has been unforgiving which is a perfect excuse to drink all the hot chocolate. We visited the Christmas market, took in the lights, and spent lots of time at home cooking, eating, and watching all the latest Golden Globe nominees.

Santa brought me three new Nigella Lawson books this year, and I’m so excited to read every single word. So many new treats coming your way!

Food blogs were absolutely out of control with unbelievable holiday food this month. It was practically raining pomegranates out there.

I’m dying to try these Baked Brie and Prosciutto Rolls. Anything filled with cheese goes n my must eat list.

These Overnight Chai Spice Sweet Rolls seem absolutely dreamy. Why did I marry someone who hates cinnamon?

This White Christmas Sparkle Cake is absolutely gorgeous. 

Poinsettia Champagne Cocktail | How to be Awesome on $20 a Day

Your favorite recipes this month were Poinsettia Champagne Cocktail, Whipped Ricotta, and the Brown Elephant Cocktail. Sounds like a swanky cocktail party. Count me in.

January is a time for new beginnings. Let’s make it more awesome than ever.

Awesome in December

Awesome in December

Awesome in December

This month has had my anxiety cranked up to 11. Between moving and pouring money into the new flat, I’ve barely had a moment to even think about Christmas. It happened almost without me knowing it. And birthday? What birthday? That was barely a thing. Whatever. Fun is for children.

I’ll share photos if the new flat soon. There are lots of things to fix to make it beautiful, but at the moment, it’s nearly livable, and that is saying something.

We did manage to get out of the house and see Rogue One. While I wouldn’t call it a masterpiece, it’s definitely a lot of fun, especially if you’re already a Star Wars fan. Have you seen it? What did you think?

I’m saving my pennies for a new fridge and cooker, but until then, there are so many things I want to cook on my questionable appliances.

These peppermint crinkle cookies look so rich and fudgy, they’d make you shudder with delight. 

I can’t remember the last time I had a good cinnamon roll. These overnight toffee cinnamon rolls need to be in my life now. 

I love spicy chicken, but I have no patience for bones. These Nashville hot chicken tenders are the chicken of my dreams. 

Poinsettia Champagne Cocktail | How to be Awesome on $20 a Day

What were your favorites this month? You loved Buffalo Chicken Pinwheels, Poinsettia Champagne Cocktails, and Chicken Parmesan. I’d have all that. Maybe we should have a party. 

I hope you had an awesome Christmas. A season of change is upon us. I’m ready. 

Be Awesome

Be Awesome

Be Awesome

More and more lately, I’ve been noticing a dichotomy developing between the life I wish I had and the life I actually lead. I want to be adventurous and interesting. I want to be thin and beautiful. I want to be endlessly compassionate and intelligent. I want to kick ass at my job and at my life every single day. I want to be a woman that my daughter will admire. I want to live for a hundred years and read every book and visit every country. I want to be perfect, and I don’t want to accept that that’s an unreasonable expectation.

In real life, I come home from work, put on my pajamas, eat leftover meatballs, watch three episodes of The Crown, eat a giant slice of cheesecake, and go to bed. I am utterly boring.

I have a very hard time acknowledging the positives in myself, and don’t you dare try to enumerate them. Seeing the positives in the world around me comes quite easily. I know all about my many many blessings. 

I know the life I want to have, but I can’t stop feeling tired and listless. I even know some of the things that I could do to get there, but then I just don’t do them. I give in to my exhaustion and indulge my urge to be boring.

Maybe I should stop punishing myself. Maybe I should change. I don’t know which one is right. 

Or maybe… Maybe I should just keep faking it. Maybe I should stop looking at other people’s online edited lives and being overwhelmed with envy. Maybe I should remind myself that there are a lot of people who are just as boring as I am most days. There might even be people who look at my edited online life and feel envy. 

I don’t have the answers. The only thing I know is that every day, I get to make choices. Everyday I can choose self-love or self-loathing. I can be easy on myself, or I can be hard on myself. I can do what I’ve always done, or I can go against my instincts and just be happy. 

Choosing happiness probably comes easy to most people, but in case it doesn’t, know that I’m right there with you. Know that you’re not the only one struggling to be okay with who you are. Know that you’re not the only one faking it. Eventually, we’ll make it, and that will truly be awesome.



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