You can’t get where you’re going if you don’t stay on the path. Life may try to lead you astray or take unexpected turns. Don’t worry, it’ll be awesome.
Today is my mom’s birthday. She would have been 59 this year. I often wish she was here to cheer me on in my quest to become a professional food blogger. Bloggers always talk about when they were starting out and the only person reading their blog was their mom. Mine passed away four years before this blog was started, but I think she would have liked it.
While I would desperately love to have her back, I literally would not be where I am today if she hadn’t died from a brain tumor. It was the bit of money I got from her life insurance that allowed me to move to Taiwan. It was that money that allowed me to meet the my husband. I can draw a direct line from her passing to where I am sitting right now. I know none of this would have happened otherwise.
The paths of our lives are so winding, so complicated, so unpredictable. There’s simply no way to know the long term consequences of our actions from day to day.
I’ve taken a lot of twists and turns in my life. I’ve made plans that have gone so horribly off the rails, I almost lost track of who I was. I eventually managed to build something stable, though. A nice normal life that lots of people would envy. So, to have a new career goal at my age seems foolish most days. Why can’t I just be content with my 9 to 5 government job with good benefits? Why do I want to change my whole life?
I don’t know the answer, but when I close my eyes and envision my path forward, I see myself owning my own business. I see myself working from home creating recipes and sharing them with the world. Maybe I see myself baking treats for people, and I see the joy that brings them. I see myself having the freedom to travel with the people I love. I see myself helping others find the courage to choose their own path and stay on it.
In reality, this path is still unclear. I have no idea how I’m going to achieve all this. But there was a point in my life where I never could have imagined I would be where I am now. Keep working, keep learning, keep trying. That’s all there is.
There’s no way to know if what I’m doing right now will actually lead me to where I want to be. So much has happened to me that I couldn’t have planned or predicted. I do actually have a crystal ball, but I haven’t figured out how to get it to show my future yet. All I can do is stay on the path and believe that what I want will come to me somehow.